Something is in your way and I think you know it. You’re over doing it again. Well, go for it. Go all the way and see it out. See where it takes you. It’s all a game

Do whatever is best for you. Don’t waiver if you feel some resistance along the way. It’s ok, it’s inevitable to feel that resistance. When you start to do what’s best for you, you’ll eventually run into

Suddenly it’s like I’m not even there anymore. No that’s not it, it’s like I was never really there. The thought of that scares me. How much time must have passed and I was not aware? Scares

You got your answer, you know what you have to do. Can’t rely on anything or anyone, you have to do it all yourself. Build it all yourself. Then when it’s all built, they will all come.