“Be quiet, don’t show them. Don’t let them know. I know you hold it in, the urge to scream. To get angry, to give in to frustration. It’s all ok to me, I don’t mind those thoughts.

“Trapped in a simulation of self improvement. A mental jerk off that never actually gets you off. It is the biggest tease there is. Solution? Stop trying to improve yourself? Be selfish? I don’t know anymore… Everything

“Everyday, every hour, every minute, every second. I think. Never stops. The voice has no mute button. The voice does not stop talking to me, luring me in. Silence has been forgotten, constant noise is the normal.

This is a thought I had before entering the gym to train for the day. It is a practice I do each day before I train to be able to look back and see how my mentality