You are going to have to leave him behind. You hear him complain about a day like today and it tires you out. Just listening to all the things he is saying is tiring you out. You don’t want to hear it, you already know that you’re going to get all of this done. It doesn’t matter how much it sucks to do in the process, you will get it done. It matters to him. He doesn’t like it, he wants it to stop. The thing is, he doesn’t have a plan for what to do if it stops. Once you get to that quiet of having nothing to do, he shuts up. He doesn’t know what to do and looks to you for answers. So let him stay where he is, leave him behind in the dark. You don’t owe him anymore than you already gave him. Now it’s time for him to shut up and watch you live out the life you said you could get. He can re join you later when he starts to act right.
He was with you for a long time. The version of you who always had something to complain about. Something to dread. You carried him through the trenches, gave him chances to grow, and even let him steer more than you should have. But now, he’s out of place. You’ve outgrown him. And every time you listen to him now, it drags you down. It dulls your edge. It makes you forget that you’re already built for this.
The silence he fears is the same silence you crave. It’s where your real self operates—without noise, without hesitation, without all the old excuses. He’s loud because he’s scared. Scared of discipline, scared of what happens when there’s no chaos left to blame. That’s not your problem anymore. You’ve got work to do, and his whining isn’t part of the process. You don’t hate him, you just don’t need him in the driver’s seat.
So walk away. Let him sit in the corner of your past, mumbling into the shadows. You’ve earned the right to move on without dragging his doubt behind you. You know what you’re doing. You know what this life requires. And if he ever catches up, it’ll be on your terms. Let him watch. Let him witness what it looks like when the quiet version of you takes the lead and actually becomes.
