This I did expect though. I figured I was well overdue for this. It’s why I clawed my way to another one, I knew soon there wouldn’t be another one. Part of me still wants it to continue, this weird nihilistic part of me. I don’t want that to lead me anymore though, so I know that this is a turning point. This is one of those moments where I have to fight past how I feel to get something I know is better for me. Even though my body and mind tell me otherwise. They don’t know, they believe in the illusion. I know.
