A day where I get to play it how I want to play it, and here I am hesitating. Unsure what move I should make first, or what move to make after. I sit still, waiting for an answer to come to me. It never does come, because I’m never really still. I’m always distracting myself with something. I never let the silence in, not like I used to. I used to allow the silence to swallow my mind. I would be nothing, need nothing. In there was everything. To get what I really want, I need to find my way back in there. Either through thoughtless thoughts, or thoughtless action.
