How Many More?

How many times have I written a send off letter to a habit I plan on breaking, and how many of them were followed through… not a single one. Not once has it worked and yet, I have to say that this time it will work. I don’t have a choice in the matter this time. It’s clear as day that this needs to be done in order to expedite my arrival to my idealized way of life. I have need for it. I want to be able to help those that have always been there to help me. It’s my turn to be able to support them. What comes next is a wave of chaos, I need center. My mind needs to be rock solid, or it will be a bumpy ride.