The body isn’t in perfect form today. There are many parts which hurt, many more beginning to hurt. I sit in between sets. I sit, and I examine my body. Taking in exactly how I’m feeling. I

Time is winding down now. I leave soon, next week actually. The money I have now is what I get, so I got to make good use of it. Or else I’m going to be fucked out

None of this really matters. It’s good that you’ve taken it this far, that you’ve allowed yourself to try, that you’ve allowed yourself to feel. It’s good that you take it seriously— not just seriously but sincerely.

Things have calmed down a bit now. I still have training to do. That much hasn’t changed. I still got to get ahead. Time before I depart is winding down, winding down fast, I must say. Should