None of this really matters. It’s good that you’ve taken it this far, that you’ve allowed yourself to try, that you’ve allowed yourself to feel. It’s good that you take it seriously— not just seriously but sincerely.

Things have calmed down a bit now. I still have training to do. That much hasn’t changed. I still got to get ahead. Time before I depart is winding down, winding down fast, I must say. Should

I already did it for this long. I made it past wall after wall. It’s just one more day of this. It’s just one more wall to overcome. Nobody can stop you but you. Decide right now

Don’t get confused here. Yes, it’s true that I’m reaching limits. My body is spazzing out. Every movement I do tires all I got. Each time, all I get— it drains you quicker this way. You can’t