I didn’t think I would ever end up this confused again, but here I am. I’m as confused as ever. This place that I’m in, it’s not sustainable. Not if my goal is to keep going forward.

Light, find the light. I know it’s hard to see right now, but hold on to something. I can feel you falling. You wanna jump off and go all the way down. One bad habit returns, and

I’ve slipped into a different dimension in my mind. I allow fear and feelings to dictate parts of my day, when I worked so hard to do the opposite. It seeped in and settled in without saying

I fell. I slowed down and the momentum I worked so hard to build up vanished. In a split moment, a decision led me here. All because I chose more sleep over what I had to do.