A thought is the catalyst.
With that thought, everything else is born.
Desire, judgment, drive, then action.
You desire something you think of.
Then you put that desire through your mental panel.
See how it plays out through your ego’s perception.
Depending on what judgment is concluded,
Either action or inaction takes lead.
However, enough inaction causes another catalyst—
When nothing ever happens.
You do whatever you can to make anything happen,
Even if it isn’t for the best.
At that point, anything is better than nothing.
Today, we experienced that process with awareness.
We knew that the idea to finish training early
Would cause a judgment on if I could do it.
That question made me angry, so I did it.
To prove to myself that I always can do it.
And that’s the cycle, isn’t it?
The mind challenges itself in endless loops,
testing the limits of what it believes.
One moment, doubt seeps in like a slow poison,
whispering the same old excuses,
but in the next, the defiance rises,
the refusal to be bound by hesitation.
So I moved.
Not because it was easy.
Not because I was ready.
But because I refused to let the weight of inaction
settle into my bones again.
Action isn’t about being comfortable.
It’s about proving to yourself, over and over,
that movement is the answer,
that doing something—anything—is always better than standing still.
I will take this lesson with me.
Not just in training, but in everything.
Because the moment I let hesitation make my choices,
I surrender my own will.
And I won’t surrender. Not today. Not ever.
