Not Here…

You’re not there. Walking through the day elsewhere. You can’t stand the moment. You hate the reality you face. It bores you to no end. Frustration overtakes your emotions and everything else is put aside. You feel those other feelings, but they sound muffled. You can’t seem to shake the frustration. Like a small fly buzzing around in your ear. Rest in this state is only achieved from complete disassociation. So you’re never really there through the day. You sort of just are, until you’re something else. This weird awkward phase right before it happens. Like growing your hair out, you’ll have an awkward phase. Where you don’t really know what to do anymore. Don’t give in to the frustration, don’t fight it either though. It’s your seasoning.