Without the ink the author just has thoughts. The thoughts can never come to fruition if the ink doesn’t create it into something physical in this realm of existence.
That is why we exist. To create what is real in the narrative world, into something that exist in the physical world. Do you know where it is that your ideas and thoughts come from? Do you even know what you are to begin with?
This existence has been strange to me, it is like everyone was trained to not mention just how bizarre our mere existence really is. That question then becomes the big secret we all wish to know.
I also have yet to figure out how to carry on with mundane conversations that lead to nothing. All I can ever do in those situations is think to myself how I am wasting what little time I have on this strange world with this meaningless conversation.
Your role here is much greater than just existing. You’re required to seek out that which makes you tick. Not just the good moments either, like going on a nice hike seeing views or doing something you love to do.
It is also important to understand what makes you tick in the fear department, the doubt and uncertainty. You should dive into that as well. How much can you really know of yourself if you don’t know why things things stop you in your tracks. Why you are scared, where that fear is stemming from.
You also need to see what happens in you stop listening to that fear for input on your decisions.
Who are you then? When what was once stopping you before now works to encourage you to seek more, to go further.
Well this is it… this right now wherever you are. I happen to be writing this at the moment. Or maybe this is later now and I am re-reading this in the hopes to snap me out of not being here again.
We all fall prey to the void that is our minds eye. It has the ability to create a world within a world. A skill only a true author could have… meaning each and every one of us has that essence of the author within us.
We carry with us the need to create worlds within worlds. We romanticize pain and loneliness as if it were a medal of honor, and when we come across someone who has learned to move around the worldly struggles and finds joy in the life they have… well we don’t want to hear it.
Why should we want to hear it? It is obvious that this person clearly doesn’t know what we go through or the constant negativity that infects our brain.
No, instead we find comfort in those who struggle with the same things we struggle with… and we never dare try and get out of that place, or else what would we have left in common?
I don’t know the “right” answer for this, as this happens to also be my first time doing this living thing. I do think I have acquired a different eyesight however.
One that lets me see where others are when they come out with the face that is not there’s, the actors face. The one used to not alarm others about the problems they are dealing with that are bigger than the world they live in.
You can see the size of someones problem in their mind by how much they let it dictate what they do or don’t do. How they react, or don’t react.
Everyone of us want something, even those that claim they want nothing. It is programmed into us and I’m not entirely sure there is a way to take it out.
It’s an inherent truth that has been carried by humans throughout all of time. We even created language as a way to communicate the things that are unseen in the world, but so clearly seen in their minds eye.
My suggestion to you is this, figure out what you want and while you’re at it… don’t be afraid of running into things you don’t want. It’s just as valuable to know.
