No rest this last weekend. I just had to keep the ball rolling from last week and onto this week. That’s ok, I want it this way. I want to struggle. I want to feel like I can’t do it. Every time I hear all those voices in my head that I can’t do it, I get excited. I just can’t wait to prove them all wrong. The closer I get to finishing what they said I couldn’t finish, the quieter they get. It’s their silence that keeps me going. The softer the voice of doubt gets the more energy I get. I know that I just have to get over the initial hump. I just have to get past what even I thought I couldn’t get to, once I do that it’s easy. It’s all downhill from there. Then I’m in my world. I’m in charge.
That first step, that first hurdle—it’s always the hardest part. The beginning is where the mind wants to rebel, wants to pull you back to safety, to comfort. It’ll tell you anything it can to stop you, throw any excuse at you to slow you down. But once you push through that, once you break that wall, it’s all yours. Every time you prove those voices wrong, a piece of you gets stronger. You realize that those doubts don’t own you, and the only thing that’s ever held you back was listening to them in the first place.
When you hit that point where your mind quiets, where the noise fades, it’s like you’ve unlocked a new level of yourself. Every step becomes easier. It’s no longer about survival, it’s about thriving. You’ve done the hard part. Now you can move in sync with yourself, no hesitation, no resistance. This is the moment when you’re truly in control. Everything you thought was impossible is now within reach, and that’s where you find power.
The struggle isn’t something to avoid—it’s where you grow. It’s where you meet yourself. It’s in that silence after the storm, when the doubt dies down, that you realize you’ve built something stronger than before. So let the voices speak, let them shout all they want. Just know they don’t stand a chance once you’ve made the decision to push forward. There’s no turning back once you start. Every step forward is a step towards being who you’ve always wanted to be.
