At this point now
Can I really keep doubting myself?
I can say I’m tired
I can say or feel anything at all.
What remains true is that I’m me
I will get it done again.
Each day that passes me by
New ways to mitigate the wait emerge.
The wait is just the delay
You know what needs to get done
You know that you don’t have a choice
For some reason you want to delay though.
It’s in us all, that itch to make it wait.
This was learned at an early age for me
Which means that it’s stitched into my mind.
The only way to get it out
Is going to be by forcing another way.
When the feeling comes up
Simply counter it with what you wish it would be.
The journey of self-doubt is a familiar one. It’s a road filled with moments where you question your abilities, where you wonder if you have the strength to push through once more. But as time passes, something remarkable happens—you start to see a pattern. No matter how tired you are, no matter how overwhelming the task may seem, you always find a way to get it done. That’s not just luck; it’s a testament to your resilience, to the core of who you are.
Each day presents new challenges, but with each passing day, you also discover new strategies to cope, new methods to stay ahead. The wait, the delay you so often find yourself grappling with, is merely a pause between the inevitable—you taking action. You’ve learned over time that while the temptation to delay is strong, it’s also something you can overcome. It’s a habit, a reflex, one that was ingrained in you from a young age. But just because it’s there doesn’t mean it has to stay.
The act of delaying, of putting off what needs to be done, is a deeply rooted habit. It’s stitched into your mind, part of your mental fabric. But habits, no matter how deeply ingrained, can be changed. They can be reprogrammed, rewritten with new patterns, new responses. When that familiar urge to delay surfaces, it’s an opportunity. It’s a chance to counteract it with the new way you wish to live—a way where action takes precedence over procrastination, where progress trumps hesitation.
This process isn’t easy. It requires conscious effort, a deliberate choice every time that old itch to delay arises. But with each time you choose differently, you’re reinforcing a new habit. You’re teaching yourself that action, not delay, is your default. And with time, this new habit will become just as automatic as the old one once was.
The key is consistency. The more you practice countering your urge to delay, the stronger your new habit will become. Eventually, the itch to delay will fade, replaced by an instinct to act, to move forward without hesitation. This is the path to mastery, to becoming the person you want to be—the one who doesn’t just dream of action but takes it, day in and day out.
It’s a journey, one that requires patience and persistence. But each step you take is a step closer to the version of yourself that you aspire to be. The version that doesn’t let old habits dictate their actions but instead creates new ones that align with their goals. So when that familiar urge to delay comes, remember that you have the power to change it. You have the power to act now, to build a new habit that will carry you forward into the future you desire.
