Without Exception…

I mean I say I don’t want this to end, but sometimes I find myself asking when will it end. It’s a tough balance to figure out. Maybe what I need isn’t to figure anything out, maybe understanding it is enough. Understanding how I feel and categorizing it inside my mind, but not making it my reality. How I feel will only ever be as much as I let it be. For now I let it be a bystander in my life. Watching and feeling as I go through the day to day. I know that feeler won’t actually sit and do the things he’s feeling out, he stops at feeling something. Doing something requires a whole new persona, so why would I bother caring about my feelings for now when I can keep doing what I know I have to do. Without exception.