You can feel it can’t you. The voice of your death echoes in your mind.
It bounces from wall to wall, connecting thoughts that you spent so much time working to keep apart. Each new word spoken is woven with the sole intention to bring you right back down to reality. Killing your dreams and any aspirations you had in the process.
So… what are you going to do about it?
I can’t have you just die on me now.
Though I also can’t keep something alive that doesn’t want to be alive.
Show me then, show me you still want to live. Even with all these new and strengthened voices rattling inside your mind telling you to just give in. Each word they speak to you brings you closer and closer to the sweet relief that is giving up.
It’s so easy, so soft.
That is where this could go… but then I see you wake up and start to get your workout in slowly throughout the day. You are well aware of the voices in your head and how they weaken you, so you force yourself to spread out your training throughout the day. It is your way to build up momentum against them. You chip away little win after little win.
Even with this new voice, this new enemy that doesn’t change, you somehow still remain yourself.
You continue to fight to keep yourself. You do it because you understand just how weak and fragile you’re. How easily everything you’ve worked for can be lost. Just how much of you is required everyday just to keep yourself where you are, and even more to push further beyond that.
Do not fear this feeling you have now. Do not try and quite the voices that have come to stay in your mind.
Let them stay.
Let them speak.
Let them laugh and doubt.
Let them watch.
When the day comes or you to shut them up, you will. You won’t even need to say a word to them. You will defeat them by remaining yourself and protecting your dream.
They want it. They want to take it from you. It’s yours and you must protect it with your life. You must feed it with your actions, and you must never speak words against it. You must never feed an ounce of doubt to what is already there. You already are going to doubt, leave that to the voices. They are not you.
I’s glad you’re here now writing. Given the circumstances and the way you’ve been feeling Today, to see how much you’re doing and at this hour is highly motivating to me.
Yea it isn’t what you wish it could be but keep on doing what you always do. There are days where that alone is a win.
Beyond that, if you can add more, you will see your voice grow louder than the noise in your mind.
Stay with it, stay moving forward. Do not lose.
