It’s hopeless to wish you would stop acting the way you’re acting. You can’t change by wishing.
You simply change to change. There is no secret to it.
There is no preparation required for it, you just needs to change and that’s that.
We are innately selfish creatures at our core, whether we choose to accept the fact or not, it’s a fact.
You can be told a detailed description of a story that was meant to help you avoid making a similar mistake. You can even think to yourself that what you’re being told is solid advice. It may even be coming from you.
It doesn’t matter, because at the very last minute… right before you’re set to act, you will do whatever it is you want to do in that moment.
You always do and you always will.
Today is Friday, meaning today is one of the set days in which you’re required to complete your push ups and pullups, along with the new addition of a 10 minute jump rope session.
You barely slept at all last night, you stayed in bed to the very last minute before heading off to work. Skipping your breakfast and leaving yourself no time to make something to go. Your solution to your food dilema, to just not eat until around 6pm after work. Might as well fast you said.
You told yourself you’d just go to the gym tomorrow to make up for today, since you won’t have any food all day and you’re sleep deprived.
The thing is… it’s still Friday. Your body, though it has no food or sleep, knows that it’s Friday. It knows that today it must train. It’s stitched into the mind.
All the excuses in the world are there, either way we said we’d still train tomorrow. So why, why am I doing my pushups now?
I’m not some pro athlete, I have no special requirements to train this intensely and religiously. Nobody is watching me either. Nobody knows if I do it or not.
It’s so easy, so soft to just do it tomorrow.
Doesn’t matter now though, I already started. I already decided.
No, I didn’t decide anything. My body decided for me. It made me.
“No food, tired”, it ask. “Good”.
This will only take more out of you, it will only grow your resolve stronger.
Just think of what it will feel like to finish that last rep of push ups, of pullups. To hear the alarm go off while you jump rope. Taking your first bite of food for the day after all that.
How will it feel to rest then?
I know the title of this page is called “Hopeless” but I don’t mean it in a negative sense.
I just mean that we are who we are. Yes, I haven’t eaten and yes I am sleep deprived. However, I also know that I am the person that finishes his training no matter what the conditions before him are like.
Tired and hungry have never been enough of a reason to stop you before and it won’t be enough Today.
That voice in your head telling you to rest today and do it tomorrow is wasting his breath. It’s efforts are in vain. It won’t matter what it tells you, no matter how hard it tries to stop you it can’t.
I will finish what I said I would do for Today.
I will train, I will eat, and life will go on.
