I’m not waiting today. I’m also not forcing anything onto myself today. I will do whatever I do today and I won’t think anything more on the matter. I know the trap of thinking before doing. It’s all just an elaborate ploy by your brain to get you to remain where you are because if you were to dare to start living your life, you might just change things. That’s the last thing it wants is change. Even though you beg for it, it doesn’t care. It’s comfortable where it is, even if it isn’t actually comfortable at all. It’s better than the discomfort of the unknown. Well that’s how it used to be. Today is left with many unknowns. I don’t really care to sniff them out. I’ll just let them reach me whenever it’s time for them to reach me. I won’t wait around for them to come like I have been. I’ll meet them there.
There’s a certain freedom in that—letting go of the need to control every outcome. I’ve spent too much time trying to predict, to calculate, to anticipate what’s next, as if knowing would make it easier. But it never did. It only kept me stuck, waiting for a certainty that never came. Maybe the unknown isn’t something to fear but something to step into willingly, without hesitation, without expectation.
If I stop thinking and just start moving, what happens then? Maybe I stumble, maybe I get it wrong, but at least I won’t be standing in the same place, tangled in thoughts that lead nowhere. At least I’ll be doing something real. And if my mind resists, if it tries to drag me back into old habits, I won’t fight it. I’ll just move forward anyway, without waiting for permission, without needing to be ready.
Because the truth is, I am ready. I’ve been ready for a long time—I just never acted like it. But today, I will.
