How you feel will change. When it does, don’t see it as a life line or as a pass to self sabotage, just let it be. Understand that it is a normal cycle things go through. You can’t change how you feel about it, you can just feel it. Right now you’re not happy where you are, but I remember some time not too long ago where you were begging to be here. It went from something you kept envisioning happening, to happened. Now you’re over it. You want to move on to the next thing. You barely got here and you already can’t stand it. There’s something in you that tells you to keep going. I don’t know much, but I do know you should follow that voice. It’s always better to know, and you can’t know unless you go all the way. You keep going.
It’s strange how quickly our feelings betray us. What once felt like a dream finally realized becomes just another piece of the routine. That’s the danger of comfort—it makes the extraordinary seem ordinary. And yet, I remember wanting this. I remember visualizing it, craving it. Now that it’s here, I’m already reaching beyond it. Maybe that’s just how I’m wired. Maybe that’s part of what keeps me alive.
The mistake isn’t in wanting more—it’s in letting how I feel determine whether I go get it. Emotions pass like weather. Some days bring lightning and heat, others a dull gray. But none of it changes the map. The path remains the same. I don’t need to be happy to keep going. I don’t need certainty or motivation. I just need to remember that there’s a voice inside me that keeps saying “more.” That voice is not wrong.
So I’ll follow it again. I’ll let it lead me to the next version of myself. I don’t care how I feel right now—because I’ve felt worse and moved anyway. And when I look back, it’s always the moments where I moved despite the fog that changed me the most. I’m not done yet. There’s still more to become. And I’ll only find it if I go all the way.
