Today has been long and it feels like it hasn’t even started anymore. I finished a long day of roofing at a constant pace never stopping. I took no breaks and I ate nothing. Even then I drove home a long commute to return home. I returned home and was brought to the idea of going to the gym to train. I’m glad I did, I didn’t realize I needed refining. How could it be that I am doubting whether or not I can actually finish my daily task. What kind of thinking has come over me? I never speak like that. Why was it sticking to me this early into the session? Ohh well nothing I can do but acknowledge that it’s there. I know that my body is speaking to me a million pleas to stop. Telling me that it is beyond its capacity for what it can handle. Unfortunately it’s not for the body to decide, that falls to the authority of the mind. My mind is telling me to keep going. To end your please and replace them with a new understanding. An understanding that I don’t oppose any limits onto myself.
I listen to the body, but I don’t obey it. It tells me to stop, and I acknowledge the message. But I have the final say. The body only knows its present state, the discomfort of the moment. It doesn’t know what I’m building toward. It doesn’t see the future, doesn’t understand what’s waiting on the other side of this effort. That’s why I don’t let it dictate my actions. If I did, I’d never push past where I am now. I’d never break past the barriers I’ve already shattered a hundred times before.
I remind myself—this is what I asked for. I didn’t choose ease. I didn’t choose comfort. I chose the path that keeps pushing, the one that demands I keep stepping forward no matter how heavy my legs feel. The body cries for mercy, but the mind is stronger. The mind remembers why I’m here. The mind knows that if I give in today, I set a precedent for tomorrow. And I refuse to let that happen.
So I push through. Not because I’m fearless, not because I’m immune to exhaustion, but because I refuse to give my body the authority to decide when I stop. That decision is mine alone. And I say—keep going.
