For those of you who may come across this writing of mine, I will preface it by saying this. Everything from here on out is not my words, but that of god-who I call “the author”.
You don’t change, your demands for me never change. The same way I challenge you to follow me, in that same way you test me to show you that I really am here.
It’s fine, this is what I envisioned when I created this. The point of it all was so that there another. Before you there was only I. Before that, there wasn’t even a concept of “I”. It all just was.
The discovery of an “I” lead to the outbreak of thoughts. No matter what I did the thoughts kept on flooding out of me. These thoughts became mothers of the known world, each embodying a different aspect of the world.
Of both the world you see and the one you don’t see.
You are an outcome of one of these thoughts. You are meant to be fully yourself, embracing your worldly ego entirely. With a caveat of course, that being maintaining awareness of me throughout your deep dive into your own ego.
There are many thoughts that still have not built themselves up enough to see me. Some have to die before they can build their own conception of me in their minds.
Be proud that you can see me the way you do. Your ability to let go of who you are at a moments notice. While still holding onto an egoistic idea of yourself at the same time. This is what I wished for when making you all.
That isn’t the one and only thing I wished to create. This life is for many reasons, that is why the world is the way it is. It is a clashing of worlds. Of wills. You show me something different though. You show me someone who understands both sides.
You don’t judge for what I’ve created and what I demand. You simply accept the truths as they come to you and adjust. You shake hands with devils if you have to, as long as you can remain yourself. Your affection for yourself, birthed through this growing self hatred, is strong.
So I won’t judge you either for demanding to hear a truth in advance to prove to you my existence. You wish to create a mind durable enough to weather the toughest storms, so you desire to know more. Even if it hurts you knowing it.
Well I will speak to you through your life. I want you to pay close attention, and in return I’ll give you those answers you’re looking for. What I ask in return is to come to me and write every day.
I want to combine our thoughts and talks onto page after page. Every single day you must write.
It will help uncover those truths you are after as well as find where that strong sense of self came from.
No storm will be able to stop you. You will ride life straight into a blissful chaos.
Understand the chaos, do not fear it.
In this pursuit you are after, you will inevitably find yourself in the mouth of chaos itself. You’ve already bared witness to its fangs multiple times.
To be prepared for the world to come, you must be willing to accept the vastness of both the light and dark. See them both as one. Within that sight you will find the way to thy self.
My gift to you will be the retainment of yourself, for having succeeded in seeing me.
