“Where is it?
How do I find myself there?
I want to know how to do it.
I want to know what it is,
What I am.
I get scared when I get too smart for my own good.
Sometimes what I find frightens me.
Then, as curiosity does, I seek to understand that fear.
I navigate it.
The abyss I will call it.
I see myself in it,
I reside in it.
I’m told that the only escape is through further exploration of it.
That I will do, Godspeed.”
In the silent echo chambers of our minds, where the world’s cacophony fades into mere whispers, we often find ourselves at the edge of an abyss. It’s a place both terrifying and magnetic, pulling us towards its depths with the promise of profound revelations. “Where is it? How do I find myself there?” These questions are not just queries; they are the beginning of a quest, a journey inward that few dare to undertake.
The path to self-discovery is seldom marked. It winds through the terrain of our greatest fears, our unexamined thoughts, the parts of ourselves that we hesitate to confront. “I want to know how to do it. I want to know what it is, What I am.” This desire to understand oneself fully is a formidable force, pushing us deeper into the realms of our psyche. Yet, with greater understanding comes greater awareness of our limitations and complexities, which can be unnerving. “I get scared when I get too smart for my own good. Sometimes what I find frightens me.”
But this fear is not a stop sign; rather, it’s a guidepost. It signals that we are on the brink of a breakthrough, at the precipice of pivotal self-awareness. “Then, as curiosity does, I seek to understand that fear. I navigate it.” This navigation is not a straightforward path but a meandering journey through what I call ‘the abyss’—a metaphorical representation of the deepest, often darkest, parts of our minds.
In this abyss, I see reflections of myself that are hard to face. I reside here, in the discomfort and the shadows, because I am told that “the only escape is through further exploration of it.” It’s a daunting notion—the idea that delving deeper into what scares us is the way out. Yet, there is a profound truth to this paradoxical escape route. Each venture into the abyss brings more light, illuminating the obscure corners of our consciousness and gradually, the frightening becomes familiar, the unknown becomes known.
“That I will do, Godspeed.” With these words, I reaffirm my commitment to this inner expedition. It’s a declaration of courage, a ready acceptance of whatever I might discover in the depths of ‘the space’ within me. It’s about moving forward with the hope and belief that on the other side of fear lies freedom, a freedom that comes from understanding the most intricate parts of our beings.
This journey isn’t just about confronting fears but about transforming them. It’s about turning the darkness into a canvas, where the light we bring forth can paint a clearer picture of who we are. This process, though fraught with challenges, is ultimately the most rewarding adventure we can undertake—for in understanding ourselves, we unlock the potential to shape our destinies, to live not just by chance, but by choice.
