“There can be no doubt, because doubt causes chaos and ones own demise.”
You say that you want to be king, well you must not just be the king but know that you are the king.
Don’t go on taking the term king as an excuse to go on an egotistical slide where you feel like god. What I mean when I say be the king is that you must take full control over yourself.
Full control meaning every word spoken, every action done or not done, where you are and who you are with. All of it falls onto you.
What was that just now that you seen?
You just previewed yourself in the distant future being on a different status level. That new you was in fact a new you. It had new desires and goals. It created its own morality line and completely disregarded the one you set for today. You had no control over his thoughts, no control as the you that you are today.
You vilanized him in that split moment… and that there is your doubt showing.
The more you envision your future self a s villain, due to a change in character, the more you yourself delay your approach to becoming him.
You’ll continue to think nonsense like you’re not ready, you won’t know how to handle what’s to come with this new level.
That isn’t the point of life, the point has always been to dive into yourself. Don’t you get it, it doesn’t matter what you decide and what lines you may or may not cross in the future. It’s pointless to concern yourself over it because it’s not reality. It’s in your mind.
This ensues the chaos you’re in right now. You’re in a state of limbo. Where you are both productive and lazy at the same time.
Chaos is your demise. You fail to understand it truly.
Chaos is not an entity or an emotion or even a place. It’s formless. Chaos is there raw energy that you’re made of.
When you yourself are in a constant battle with yourself, the way you are, your form itself changes. It’s molded into something other than yourself.
What you want, what you’re ok with, the thoughts that arise and invade, there is a splitting of them all.
Each one creates its own parallels of itself in opposite form. Leading you to both extremes of what they each represent. You’re stuck in one of those parallels right now. It is shown in your eyes. You’re both ok, genuinely happy, and breaking down in a bottomless pit of loneliness.
One thing is for sure, this state you’re in can’t suffice. Chaos itself isn’t real. It’s a temporary state of being before a recalibration of yourself back into yourself.
Meaning that one side of the spectrum is going to win in the end.
You’ll be happy or miserable.
Not to say that you’ll be incapable of the other emotion after a winner is decided, just that throughout all that is to come… one of the two emotions will prevail as the default. state of being.
If you’re still in doubt then leave it now. You must be the king.
