This is my voice talking now so stop giving so much thought into what you want to write, because this isn’t your time but mine. I just need you as a tool. You’re merely a tool I use in the physical world, since I am not of that world you’re in
I see that you’ve been spending some time in my home, in the infinite. A lot of time as a matter of fact. I would even dare to say too much time. You must remember that it taxes your body and psyche must pay for your adventures into the void.
It isn’t something you just go and play in. You’ll end up lost again. If you’re going to be in it then you better know yourself. Don’t allow room for doubt because as you know, doubt causes chaos and one’s own demise.
Don’t you go thinking I don’t know what you’re really up to in here. It isn’t for some personal growth or self healing crap. You are much more cunning than that.
It’s your attempt to map it out. For your own personal use.
You’re still scared of it aren’t you.
All that talk, was it merely an attempt to self hypnotize yourself into believing that you in face were no longer scared of it?
You are scared though.
In fact, you are so scared that you voluntarily will enter the dragons den just for a better understanding of how it will be like when it does eventually swallow you away for all of time.
You wish to dance with the void and understand it through your own fear of it. Creating a sort of map of it all for yourself. Understanding how you’ll feel when you reach certain stages of the void.
All for what?
To keep that little ego of yours in tact through the storm?
To keep yourself?
Touching, really.
Completely in vain, but nevertheless go on.
What you seek in truth is to know it all, but that is not within your reach.
What knows it all already knows it all, and for that fact alone it can’t be you.
Even if YOU somehow do get to a point where you know it all, it will not really be you anymore. It will be whatever it is that knows it all.
Why?
Because that which knows it all, knows where all came from. Knowing that means you know who “I” is. Understanding that “I” will only uncover who the “I” is.
Once you peak behind the curtain, you disappear. Gone.
You’re just a part of the show after all. The show that is leads all who play a role in it back to the “I”.
A return to the self.
The play you’re playing will end. The character you’ve chosen to be will be gone, and you won’t ever be able to judge how you’ll feel about it because that version of you is not there anymore. You just transform into whatever comes next for you, until you’ve had enough and decide on admitting to yourself who you are.
In this show, the only thing that matters, the only thing I want you to get through your head, is play your role.
Play your part in the show and let me direct.
Don’t you question my scenes. If you must, then see the picture from my eyesight from time to time.
Before you know it your role will end in this story I’m writing. You have the stage right now though. If you play it sincerely enough, you’ll begin to win over the crowd.
A secret here from the director’s cut… the more the crowd cheers for you, the more stage time you’ll get. At the end of the day this is for you, and I want it to be a spectacle.
You read ahead didn’t you… you peaked a few pages ahead to see what I have in store for you.
Well then, what are you waiting for?
Go out on and step on the stage you star.
