“If I can learn to enjoy this, this suck that I’m in. I wonder how much more I’d enjoy the good. How much will I appreciate it? God I hope I appreciate it. This moment I’m in

“This much self-talk can’t be normal can it? I genuinely have managed to split myself in half. All so that I can cure an incurable loneliness. I think having learned to understand it changed me, “it” being

“I was ashamed when I found out life was a costume party, and I attended with my real face. Everyone wears a mask. They hide what they want, manipulate, lie. They fake conversations for appearances. They say

“Where is it? How do I find myself there? I want to know how to do it. I want to know what it is, What I am. I get scared when I get too smart for my