“You are no joke. You quite literally got after it, every single day this week. Your intensity was unrivaled by your

“No one really knows what is going on. What life even is. Everyone is running on guesses and hopes, or even

“What if I continue to train harder. Focusing each day on subtle improvements. Jumping faster, breathing better, stretching better. What if

“If I can learn to enjoy this, this suck that I’m in. I wonder how much more I’d enjoy the good.

“This much self-talk can’t be normal can it? I genuinely have managed to split myself in half. All so that I

“I was ashamed when I found out life was a costume party, and I attended with my real face. Everyone wears

“Where is it? How do I find myself there? I want to know how to do it. I want to know

“They don’t know anything really. I like it that way. It does make it lonely, but that’s ok. I’ve learned to

“Be quiet, don’t show them. Don’t let them know. I know you hold it in, the urge to scream. To get

“Trapped in a simulation of self improvement. A mental jerk off that never actually gets you off. It is the biggest